Allen Cash's living with Diabetes

Rethinking my thinking. 12/22/2014 Greeting all, So as some of you know the last time I posted I was not in a good place in my head. I can tell you with all honesty...it's a little bit better this time. It is clear to me I need more support. Asking for help is something I am not very good at so this is going to be tough.  I'm still not eating healthy and not working out at all now. My weight is fluctuating between 252 and 256 lbs. I'm dealing with a "don't give a shit" attitude lately as well. I know I need to change all this if I want to live but it's not so easy to do. Depression has always been apart of my life. I think thats true for most people. The Lexapro does help a little but I need to do more. I can't do this alone. I thought I could but it is clear I can't. What is going to be the hardest is finding a group that isn't about shoving religion in the mix. I just can't take these people seriously. So it is going to be tough to fi...

Feeling....? 12/12/2014 I know it's been a while since I lasted posted anything but I did warn you I do tend to get lazy. This time it was not because of lack of interest or just being lazy. I simply have not had much to say on the subject. The only real information I have to share is due to my last visit to the oncologist... it would seem my white blood count is down and he isn't too concern that it's cancer. Good news but it still does not explain what is going on with my body. It could be all in my head but who knows. His answer to the unexplained high white blood count was my weight. The most used and most generic answer in the medical world. I'm supposed to go back a couple of more times to the cancer center next year but I am going to cancel both appointments. I see no reason to go back. Same for the special diseases appointment too. It is clear they have no viable answers for me. I have enough to deal with as is without all these wasted appointments. My Bloo...