Allen Cash's living with Diabetes

A Late update. 6/28/2015 Good AM/PM all, So with all the excitement of Marriage Equality being law and all the work I have been trying to get done, I just simply forgot to post a update of the Focal Laser Therapy so here I go..  They started with my left eye since it was the worst one. The session wasn't horrible and for the most part it was not painful. Although right at the end of the session, it began to hurt a little. When he was done, I could see anything out of my left eye but an imprint of of the laser light patterns. If that makes any sense.  They gave me drops to use once a day to help with the healing process. The first 3 days my eye hurt and so did around my eye. It took almost a week for me to see clear enough to function properly. My eye is still pretty weird to see with. I can still see what I call starie points of light all the time but mostly when I try to sleep. The vision in my left eye seems to be worse but I was told it would be at first.I still have tw...

Feeling defeated for whatever reason. 6/10/2015 The last couple of weeks has been kind of rough for Dale and I. Last week my great dane got out the back yard and wandered into the neighbor's swimming pool and drowned. She was an old girl and I knew he time was about up but I did not expect her to drown. Seems like a horrid way to go since she was very afraid of our pool and water in general. As odd as this may sound, her death isn't really the key to why I have been feeling so out of sorts of late. Her death was certainly not helping but I was in a funk before she died. It may be the concerns with the laser theraphy coming up or just general depression. I just feel like everytime I get a few steps ahead something else comes along and pisses on it. I guess I just need to process things before I completely freak myself out. I don't know why but I feel so fucking alone. Foolish I know... but it is how it feels. Maybe I'm just having a pity party and I should just get t...