Allen Cash's living with Diabetes

I HATE Needles! 9/20/2014 Okay all... the Bydureon Pens came in late yesterday. I gave myself the first injection about four minutes ago. First time I ever gave myself a shot before. How was it you ask? Let's just say... I'd rather prick my finger 100 times a day than deal with this painful shit! I suppose if this works it will be worth that once a week injection.I did do a great deal of reading about this med. I have a lot to look out for. Some scary side effects to be concern about. Thyroid cancer mainly. However I think it will be fine. I've been lucky since my BP and Diabetes meds were adjusted to not experience anymore bad side effects. I still have issues with bouts of dizziness and nausea but not as intense as it once was. For the most part I am feeling better and not as stressed out. As long as I pay attention to how I am feeling and really get down to eating better and working out... I can only be better. I must say this with all my heart... I HATE NEEDLES! The...

Still alive and etc etc... 9/17/2014 Well the surgery/exam went well Monday. I will know what the biopsy result in the next few days but they found no tumors or anything unusual. They did both the colon and my stomach. Of course I was out like a light. It felt like just a couple of minutes and then it was over. Even the prep the day before was not as intense as I thought it would be. My stomach is starting to get back to normal and I'm feeling a lot more clear headed. All in all it wasn't so bad. I know Dr. D wants to do one more test but I don't know when that will be. He isn't in too much of a hurry for the bone biopsy. I'm okay with that. I need a break from all this doctor stuff. Now I can get back to the Diabetes thing and not be so obsessed with other crap. As I have mention before my sugar had been pretty high the last month. My fasting number has been between 160 to 175. However my last visit with my regular doc was pretty good. My A1C is down from 14 ...

Oh this Flabby, Saggy Body of mine exposed to Medical Eyes. 9/10/2014 So I got a call from the Dr.Lakshmi Gopal's office this morning about my colonoscopy and they set things up for this coming Monday morning at 6:30am at the Ambulatory/Surgical Center. I had to go pick up my instructions for prep and some paperwork to fill out and take with me next Monday. It's going to be rough going without eating for about 24 hours or more and having to "Clean" my colon out will be so much fun I just can't wait to spend a day sitting on the golden throne. I have to be honest... I'm feeling anxious. Not about the prep or the procedure itself but strangers staring at my old gross flat ass and my revolting body. I know that is silly and I can assure you I am not a modest person nor am I egotistical and vain. It's just the feeling of being judged by people that did not see me when I was 100lb biggers. It just seems hurtful if they did judge me without knowing all my ha...

More Test, More Stress..whatever 9/9/2014 Here is a real quick update on yesterday's visit with my Oncologist. First the place was packed and it took them an hour to get to me. I did not mind the wait but I got a little dizzy sitting in the waiting room. It wasn't too bad so by the time they called me I was feeling a bit more together. As always they took some blood, checked my blood pressure and then weighed me. The young lady that does that is very sweet and very professional. I can't say that about the rest of the idiots that work there. Anyway... I was sent to an examining room to wait to talk to the doc. I'm not sure why I do this but I can't help but notice just how tiny these rooms are. It's like the world is shrinking and I'm now apart of that tiny room. Like it or not I'm there. So the Doc. came into the room all smiles. It's kind of comforting but at the same time it's creepy! I couldn't help but to giggle a bit. Now i can't...

My number is High but the Coffee is so GOOD! 9/8/2014 Good AM/PM all,  I woke up this morning to 222 for my fasting number. It sucks! About the time I think I have a handle on the blood sugar... BAM! It's starting to get old. Oh well... not sure what to do anymore. Anyway I have an appointment with Dr. D at the cancer center for a follow up. Since they can't find anything to explain the W.B.C being elevated I am going to call it a day and move forward. I am more concern with my Diabetes than anything else. I guess the W.B.C thing is some weird anomaly that for now.. can't be diagnosed.  I know i am repeating myself from the last post so.. sorry about that. It's what's in my head right now. I also have a 3 month visit with my regular doc. this thursday. I am concern he may change my meds again due to high readings. I hope not. It is such a pain in the ass to deal with Express Scripts. It's not that they are not accommodating. It's mostly the lack of commu...

Doing what is right for myself. 9/5/2014 Okay my test results at the infectious disease center came out good with no real issues. I'm happy about that but at the same time... I still don't know what is going on with my white blood count. I go back to the cancer center this monday for a follow up. Now if he tells me he wants to do the chest x-ray and a bone biopsy...I am going to move forward with that. If these two last test come out clean, then I am going to call it quits with worrying over the W.B.C deal. They have tested me for damn near everything and nothing has given me an answer to what might be causing this. I have done everything everyone has asked me to do so now I have to do what I need to do and thats refocus myself on my Diabetes. My blood sugar has been all over the chart and my eating is out of control. The urge to give up is really starting to bother me. The W.B.C thing is just making me frustrated and depressed. Which is the last thing I need. Like I said b...

Hair not so bad today. 9/1/2014 I just wanted to post a quick update on yesterday's bad hair day. I'm feeling emotionally much better than I did. I got sick a couple of times yesterday when I was trying to get some work done. My blood pressure dropped a couple of times and at some point I ended up on the office floor. I guess the heat got to me. I know, I know... I should be more careful but I guess I get so sick of not being unable to do the things I use to do. I hate not being useful. I hate not knowing what the fuck is wrong with me that I can't function like a normal human being. I actually had to use one of those electric carts in the store the other day because walking in large stores is getting impossible to do without getting sick. As silly as it is... I was very embarrassed riding that damn thing. I just want to be better so I can get back to living instead of just sitting around getting depressed over feeling useless. I keep wondering if this is it. Is this th...