Falling Hard

Falling Hard
3/2/2017

For the last few months I have in a way... given up on my health. My weight has gone up a great deal and my Blood sugar is up again. I'm due next week to do my blood work for my D-Rex visit the following week. I am pretty sure my A1C will be too high. I am sure he will give me hell for it. Rightfully so. I can't defend what ism't defend-able. The weight gain bothers me but it's my A1C that concerns me the most. I guess if that was true I would not have allowed myself to go back to where I started. I've fallen hard and this time I am not sure if I can get back up again. I understand how ridiculous I sound but I'm just trying to be honest and understand myself a bit. Perhaps I am just fucking lazy? I wish I knew.
I'm sure some will read this and think I am seeking attention. Perhaps they may be right. It isn't my intention. i suppose I should just get over myself and get up and do what I need to do. All I can do is try.

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