Just checking in
Just checking in.
7/5/2017
Greetings all, I just wanted to check in and keep this blog moving. I go in to see D-Rex next week and I am sure my A1C is still good but I am sure I'll get the lecture about my weight gain. I'm okay with that. We all need a boot up the ass once in a while. I know I do. My right shoulder is doing much better but still not where it should be. I'm sure that is my fault because I am not doing the exercises as I should be. I've been making really bad decisions when it comes to my diet and drinking too much beer. I am surprised my A1C isn't out of control. I think I either need to get my shit together or just stop with the meds and going to see doctors. Just give the fuck up is what I feel like doing. Not a smart thing to be thinking about I know. Feelings often do not match the logical side of our thinking.
I don't know what to do. All I know is everything seems to be caving in on me and I feel powerless to stop it. I am sure I am not alone in these feelings. I just felt the need to express my feelings here. The funny thing is I doubt anyone reads this anyway so there is no risk of exposing my feelings to trolls or simply put.... general heartless assholes. However I know that even if one person reads this blog and is in some way helped.... it's worth the risk. I may not be fixable but I hope it will help someone else not get to the point I am right now.
I'll update next week on my D-Rex visit.
7/5/2017
Greetings all, I just wanted to check in and keep this blog moving. I go in to see D-Rex next week and I am sure my A1C is still good but I am sure I'll get the lecture about my weight gain. I'm okay with that. We all need a boot up the ass once in a while. I know I do. My right shoulder is doing much better but still not where it should be. I'm sure that is my fault because I am not doing the exercises as I should be. I've been making really bad decisions when it comes to my diet and drinking too much beer. I am surprised my A1C isn't out of control. I think I either need to get my shit together or just stop with the meds and going to see doctors. Just give the fuck up is what I feel like doing. Not a smart thing to be thinking about I know. Feelings often do not match the logical side of our thinking.
I don't know what to do. All I know is everything seems to be caving in on me and I feel powerless to stop it. I am sure I am not alone in these feelings. I just felt the need to express my feelings here. The funny thing is I doubt anyone reads this anyway so there is no risk of exposing my feelings to trolls or simply put.... general heartless assholes. However I know that even if one person reads this blog and is in some way helped.... it's worth the risk. I may not be fixable but I hope it will help someone else not get to the point I am right now.
I'll update next week on my D-Rex visit.
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