I just don't know

I just don't know
8/27/2017

I guess you can tell by the title, that this is going to be a bummer post. You would be correct in that assumption. I will try to make this short and to the point. Right now I am dealing with high Blood pressure and my fasting numbers have been way too high. My shoulder is still locked up and from what I understand it may take two years or so to break it free.  I'm on B.P meds but it's still too high and i don't know why other than it could be from my weight gain. As for my Blood sugar...I don't know why it so high now. It was almost 200 yesterday morning and I know I did not eat anything that would spike it so fucking high. It's frustrating but I know it's my own fault. I don't know why I lost control over myself. Sometimes I just want to give up and let this shit kill me and be done with it. It's not what I will do but it is how I feel at times. Sometimes you just don't fucking know. What's worse... sometimes we just don't fucking care. 

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