Hair not so bad today.
Hair not so bad today.
9/1/2014
I just wanted to post a quick update on yesterday's bad hair day. I'm feeling emotionally much better than I did. I got sick a couple of times yesterday when I was trying to get some work done. My blood pressure dropped a couple of times and at some point I ended up on the office floor. I guess the heat got to me. I know, I know... I should be more careful but I guess I get so sick of not being unable to do the things I use to do. I hate not being useful. I hate not knowing what the fuck is wrong with me that I can't function like a normal human being. I actually had to use one of those electric carts in the store the other day because walking in large stores is getting impossible to do without getting sick. As silly as it is... I was very embarrassed riding that damn thing. I just want to be better so I can get back to living instead of just sitting around getting depressed over feeling useless. I keep wondering if this is it. Is this the way my life will be from now on?
Will I become one of those folks that need 24 hour care and my privacy will be a thing of the past? The thought of it all truly makes me wonder if I can handle a life with no life. Don't get me wrong. I am going to do whatever I can to make sure none of this happens to me but it is a reality that could be. I suppose I am just trying to see the whole picture and not delude myself. Maybe I am thinking too far ahead? Who knows? I can only face the day a minute at a time. As we all do. Well whatever will be will be. No point in worrying about it right now. For now... it's a Not so bad Hair day and thats a good thing.
9/1/2014
I just wanted to post a quick update on yesterday's bad hair day. I'm feeling emotionally much better than I did. I got sick a couple of times yesterday when I was trying to get some work done. My blood pressure dropped a couple of times and at some point I ended up on the office floor. I guess the heat got to me. I know, I know... I should be more careful but I guess I get so sick of not being unable to do the things I use to do. I hate not being useful. I hate not knowing what the fuck is wrong with me that I can't function like a normal human being. I actually had to use one of those electric carts in the store the other day because walking in large stores is getting impossible to do without getting sick. As silly as it is... I was very embarrassed riding that damn thing. I just want to be better so I can get back to living instead of just sitting around getting depressed over feeling useless. I keep wondering if this is it. Is this the way my life will be from now on?
Will I become one of those folks that need 24 hour care and my privacy will be a thing of the past? The thought of it all truly makes me wonder if I can handle a life with no life. Don't get me wrong. I am going to do whatever I can to make sure none of this happens to me but it is a reality that could be. I suppose I am just trying to see the whole picture and not delude myself. Maybe I am thinking too far ahead? Who knows? I can only face the day a minute at a time. As we all do. Well whatever will be will be. No point in worrying about it right now. For now... it's a Not so bad Hair day and thats a good thing.
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