Oh this Flabby, Saggy Body of mine exposed to Medical Eyes.
Oh this Flabby, Saggy Body of mine exposed to Medical Eyes.
9/10/2014
So I got a call from the Dr.Lakshmi Gopal's office this morning about my colonoscopy and they set things up for this coming Monday morning at 6:30am at the Ambulatory/Surgical Center. I had to go pick up my instructions for prep and some paperwork to fill out and take with me next Monday. It's going to be rough going without eating for about 24 hours or more and having to "Clean" my colon out will be so much fun I just can't wait to spend a day sitting on the golden throne. I have to be honest... I'm feeling anxious. Not about the prep or the procedure itself but strangers staring at my old gross flat ass and my revolting body. I know that is silly and I can assure you I am not a modest person nor am I egotistical and vain. It's just the feeling of being judged by people that did not see me when I was 100lb biggers. It just seems hurtful if they did judge me without knowing all my hard work and progress. I know I shouldn't care and I guess deep down I don't but a part of me is insecure about my body. Yes I know... get over it and yes I should. I am still a little human but I will do my best to try and get that shit out of my head... no pun intended. :)
I guess they will have to face this Flabby, Saggy body of mine. I'll be knocked out so i won't care nor will I remember a thing..lol!
On another topic... I have my regular doc's appointment in the morning for a 3 month check up on my Diabetes. I'm sure it won't be good. My B.S has been weird lately. However I can only deal with one drama at a time. Lets find out if I have colon cancer and then I'll worry about the other 12 things on my to do list.
I will post again next week after the surgery/exam and after I have come down from those lovely pain meds... w00t!
9/10/2014
So I got a call from the Dr.Lakshmi Gopal's office this morning about my colonoscopy and they set things up for this coming Monday morning at 6:30am at the Ambulatory/Surgical Center. I had to go pick up my instructions for prep and some paperwork to fill out and take with me next Monday. It's going to be rough going without eating for about 24 hours or more and having to "Clean" my colon out will be so much fun I just can't wait to spend a day sitting on the golden throne. I have to be honest... I'm feeling anxious. Not about the prep or the procedure itself but strangers staring at my old gross flat ass and my revolting body. I know that is silly and I can assure you I am not a modest person nor am I egotistical and vain. It's just the feeling of being judged by people that did not see me when I was 100lb biggers. It just seems hurtful if they did judge me without knowing all my hard work and progress. I know I shouldn't care and I guess deep down I don't but a part of me is insecure about my body. Yes I know... get over it and yes I should. I am still a little human but I will do my best to try and get that shit out of my head... no pun intended. :)
I guess they will have to face this Flabby, Saggy body of mine. I'll be knocked out so i won't care nor will I remember a thing..lol!
On another topic... I have my regular doc's appointment in the morning for a 3 month check up on my Diabetes. I'm sure it won't be good. My B.S has been weird lately. However I can only deal with one drama at a time. Lets find out if I have colon cancer and then I'll worry about the other 12 things on my to do list.
I will post again next week after the surgery/exam and after I have come down from those lovely pain meds... w00t!
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