Diabetic Education (part 2): “Will I make it this time?”

7/24/2014

Diabetic Education (part 2): “Will I make it this time?”

I'm in a pretty decent mood for now. You know how it can be some days. One moment “HI Lets Party’ and the next “Go fuck yourself”. It’s insane but it is what it is. A couple of days ago I had a sudden drop in sugar levels which was freaky. However the levels were 181 which is still high but normally it’s around 260, It happened so fast it kind of scared me. I did not know what to do. The levels were still too high at 181 so I did not know if I should eat or be happy I was below 200? I think the only reason why it made me sick was because it did drop mighty fast. In all honesty I had eaten since breakfast and it was a big bowl of multi grain cereal. I would say it was about 6 hours since I last ate. I guess I will have to make myself eat more often so I don’t have sudden crashes.

Today I go back to Diabetes class and I am in a much more chilled state of mind than the last time. It was a disaster last time. I am hoping my body will behave itself and allow me to learn something other than staring at the creepy colors on the walls of the E.R. I have everything ready and I am somewhat ready for them to wheel me into class. Yes I have to be in a wheelchair this time. I hate it but it would make it the walk there a lot less stressful. Most especially carrying this big heavy bag of crap I insist on carrying. One day I am going to get a smart pad. Toting around an old laptop seems crazy but it’s what I have so… whatever. I do feel a lot more prepared this time. This will also make the stress levels low.

Dale has an appointment for his MRI this morning as well so he won’t be joining me in class. I doubt he would want to sit in a class for a whole day anyway. We are hoping this MRI will give us the reasons for Dale’s lower back pain. His doc. thinks it may be a slipped disc. I am sure I use the wrong word for that but...Whatever. You get the idea. It is going to be a busy day and hopefully a successful one. Oh yes one more thing… my Lexapro came in Tuesday and so I started taking it yesterday morning. Obviously I can’t tell if it’s working or not. It may take a couple of weeks or more to feel any difference. I am hoping it will help me with my anxiety but not make me into a perky douche. I’m fucked up enough as I am already. So here I go back to school to give this another try. Will I make it this time? YES I will! Have a great day all!!!